WHY is this LIFE HARD?

So many many things happen in our life.  Many that we remember and many that we try to forget. Regardless of how many things happen in your life some seem to stand out. I remember how I felt when I went to court for the first time for Child Support. And now years later I still recall all the feelings and how small I feel. I know that I should not feel that way because GOD, Yes, MY GOD has helped me during that time. Whenever anything related to that time period in my life comes up I feel so totally uneasy and my heart starts pumping faster. I do not know why I do this do my myself. You would think that after all these years I should know better especially since MY GOD helped me along this journey. But alas, NO for I am only human with flaws and trying to deal with this is very hard for me to do. Tell me why we are so blind to see what is really going on here. I don't know but I will pray about it that's for sure. Pray that GOD, my LORD, My Savior can help me with this issue again.