WHY is this LIFE HARD?

So many many things happen in our life.  Many that we remember and many that we try to forget. Regardless of how many things happen in your life some seem to stand out. I remember how I felt when I went to court for the first time for Child Support. And now years later I still recall all the feelings and how small I feel. I know that I should not feel that way because GOD, Yes, MY GOD has helped me during that time. Whenever anything related to that time period in my life comes up I feel so totally uneasy and my heart starts pumping faster. I do not know why I do this do my myself. You would think that after all these years I should know better especially since MY GOD helped me along this journey. But alas, NO for I am only human with flaws and trying to deal with this is very hard for me to do. Tell me why we are so blind to see what is really going on here. I don't know but I will pray about it that's for sure. Pray that GOD, my LORD, My Savior can help me with this issue again.

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WOO HOO! HOORAY HOORAY for FAMILY TIME!

WOO HOO! This is going  to be an interesting year for me and my family.
 My brother in law and his wife are coming to visit us this spring some time right after EASTER.
We get to visit John's family this summer. John's dad turns 85 this summer. WAY COOL!
We get to visit some of my family in Pennsylvania while still on vacation in OHIO. My mom, and my aunt (mom's sister) who I have not seen since Julia has been 6 months old. It has been 5 long years.
John's newphew is thinking about coming to visit us with his family in AUGUST. YEAH!
I say  HOORAY, HOORAY for FAMILY TIME!

WHY?

Why do certain things happen in your life? I guess for two reasons: 1. To wake you up or 2. Are you paying attention. Not really sure why but I do know that life is full of Mysteries.

WHY?

Why does it seem that I open my mouth and insert my foot. I sometimes wish that I would just keep my mouth SHUT.
Life is hard.

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QUESTIONS

There are many questions that I would like answered. It is not the time that I am lacking for the questions but the person that I would like to talk to is GOD.
Why did you take away my grandma? Why couldn't grandma get better instead of worse since she was coming to visit me and my family this summer? Why now and not later?
Why did Julia get sick this past weekend with no explanation of how or why? Why did she have to get sick at all especially when John and I have no relatives here with us to help?
PLAN B that they are talking about at church was cool until it happened to me and I said PLAN B SUCKS big time. PLAN B is not cool with me right now because I cannot see what the bigger picture is.
I hate most things now because I do not understand anything at all in my life.
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY GOD? My heart is breaking and there is nothing to make me feel better.
Abuela is gone now and talking with the angels. I miss her and I love her but I realize she is in a better place.

WOW! Time goes by so fast.

WOW! It's hard to believe that January has come and gone.  DETERMINATION has been hard for me to do.
My first determination goal was meet but I feel that I failed because I did not continue to follow up and exercise like I knew I should. My second determination goal of Ice-skating is not meet yet. We did get to go
ice skating but I had some help. I will continue to work on this and the other goals for DETERMINATION.

This month we are teaching the kids at church all about KINDNESS (the GOLDEN RULE). Everyone has learned this rule in kindergarten and hopefully will not forget for the rest of the their lives.